I Felt Guilty After a Small Lie

So last week I had to attend this conference on campus and my partner asked if I was planning to meet up with her too. But at the time, I really didn't feel like seeing her because it seemed like there were just so many things between us right now. So instead of being honest, I told her I hadn’t made any plans yet. She ended up getting this really disappointed look on her face and suggested we do something different another time. I’m not proud to admit that I lied, but sometimes I can be such a jerk. It was just this one little thing, but it’s been eating at me ever since, knowing how much she cares about us being together when plans are supposed to come through.