i had this thing last summer

so like i work at the local grocery store and its pretty chill usually but one day a customer comes in who was totally checking me out. we had some small talk about groceries or something but man, there was just this tension that you could feel even if no words were said. it was her first time coming into the store for sure because she seemed new to town. we ended up chatting again and i got her name and number. turns out its jess, a lawyer with a pretty sharp style. yeah so one day after work i called her up asking if maybe we could meet up somewhere since there was this attraction i couldnt shake off. needless to say she agreed and we met at this coffee shop down the street from my place. the first few minutes were just awkward small talk but then things got real quick when jess leaned in and kissed me. it was an earth-shattering moment, totally unexpected yet so right. i felt like a new person with all these butterflies flying around inside of me. we ordered drinks and sat closer and the conversation flowed naturally into more personal topics. it became clear that both of us had been thinking about this moment for a while. before i knew it, jess suggested heading over to her place nearby which seemed like an obvious move but man did it feel risky. on our way there we got so worked up exchanging texts and calls, whispering naughty things in the elevator and hallway until finally we made it inside her apartment. as soon as we were alone, it was all hands off the clock with passionate kisses, gropey hands everywhere, breathless moans filling the room. things got wild that night, exploring each other's bodies for hours on end. every touch felt electric and charged with anticipation. eventually we made love, a slow burning climax of desire that left us both sated yet wanting more. it was an intense rush i had never experienced before. i've kept this secret from my wife ever since - the thrill of it all is still so vivid in my mind weeks later but also so heavy on my conscience. what am i even supposed to do with these feelings now that they've come out? it just feels like a dark chapter and im not sure if or how i should come clean, its been eating at me for months.