Post-Divorce Kink Discovery

So here I am, a nonbinary person in my twenties, recently separated from my wife after years of marriage. We tried to make it work for the kids' sake, but let's face it, there were some serious issues that we just couldn't fix. One of those was me discovering late into our relationship that I have this side interest in a specific kink that I never talked about with her. It felt like a betrayal, but honestly, it’s my body and my pleasure, right? Anyway, the moment I started exploring on my own, I felt this immense relief. No more pretending to enjoy things just because she liked them or feeling guilty for wanting something different. It was liberating in a way that made me question why I waited so long. But here's the kicker: now every time I explore my new kink, there’s this nagging voice in my head asking if I should stop. If she knew, would it change how we parent together? Would it push us further apart than we already are? It’s a weird place to be in, enjoying something that feels so taboo and forbidden. I guess what I’m trying to say is, it’s complicated being the person you thought you were versus who you truly want to be. And while exploring my new side has been liberating, there's this constant worry about how it might impact our shared future with the kids. It’s not something I can easily talk about, so here it is, out in the open.