Detached Reflections of Recent Events

Since my recent separation from my spouse and dropping out of grad school, I've found myself engaging in what feels like an unusual pattern. I’ve been frequenting online forums for adults exploring non-traditional sexual dynamics, which has led to some unexpected interactions with partners who are quite different from my ex-wife in personality and preferences. One night, I attended a local event for people interested in role-playing various scenarios that range widely across the spectrum of consensual kink activities. It was more intense than I had anticipated, both emotionally and physically. Curiously, this has left me questioning whether these encounters are helping or hindering my emotional healing process. Do others find exploring new sexual dynamics beneficial after a major life change like divorce? Am I just looking for something to distract myself from reality, or is there genuine therapeutic value in experimenting with my desires and boundaries?