Why Did I?

I recently broke up with my partner after two years, and the day it ended, I decided to explore a new kink that had been lingering in my mind for months. I booked a session with a professional dominatrix who walked me through everything, ensuring consent was explicit at every step. It felt oddly liberating but also unsettling. Why did I choose this moment to delve into something so out of character? Was it about breaking free from the constraints of my old relationship or seeking something new and thrilling? Or perhaps just plain curiosity in a moment of vulnerability? Reflecting back, I think there’s more depth to unpack here.