After The Split

Since my divorce last month, I've been exploring some pretty intense kink scenes with strangers. It's not exactly what you'd expect, I don't mean anything illegal or even all that extreme. But there’s something about the anonymity and the trust built in these moments that feels incredibly freeing. Tonight, for instance, was a CNC roleplay, consensual non-consent. We went through an elaborate setup where I acted as if he was forcing me into things, but it felt oddly liberating instead of scary or wrong. It's like all the repressed frustration from my marriage just poured out in this wild and exciting way. Before you judge too harshly, remember that these aren't real relationships; they're a release for now. I get why some people might think it's unhealthy or risky, but when it’s all consensual and with someone who understands the boundaries, it feels like the opposite of dangerous to me. That said, I'm not sure how long this will last. Should I be looking at therapy? Or is there a chance that this phase could actually help me grow in some meaningful way?