Late Shift Desires

I work nights in retail and it's been killing me. My partner and I have this thing where we'll do these really wild fantasies late at night when everyone else is asleep. But tonight, I got stuck with a shift that goes past midnight. The store closes and I'm still here, doing inventory alone. It's so quiet I can hear my own heartbeat. I was thinking about all the stuff we could be doing right now if I weren't here. Like how he likes to dress up in this tight leather outfit and pretend to be a naughty shop clerk at one of these sex toy stores. He'd lock me out, leave me stranded with just some silly blindfold and handcuffs that look like they're for show. And then tonight hit me and I was stuck here thinking about how he’s probably sleeping by now or maybe hanging out on the couch watching something boring. It's such a contrast, I feel so horny but I’m stuck in this dull, quiet space where everything feels flat. Just staring at these empty shelves is making it worse. I started to wonder what he might be doing right now if we were together. Like maybe we’d end up back at my place with me locking the door and turning out all the lights except for a single candle in the bedroom. I can see him, undressing slowly, each piece of clothing falling away, his hands on buttons, zippers sliding down, But then here I am, looking around this empty store. The smell of cleaning supplies and stale coffee, none of the fun and adventure we could have right now. It's like being stuck in a dream about sex but you can't actually act on it because your mind is trapped somewhere else. I wanted to call him up, just tell him I couldn’t wait any longer but instead I stayed quiet, just thinking and feeling all the heat building up inside me that had nowhere to go. It’s moments like this when being alone makes everything feel so much more intense.