The Artist's Dilemma...

So, I've been with my partner for seven years now. We met in art school and have this amazing connection over our creative passions. But lately, something's been gnawing at me.... There was this other artist I started collaborating with on a project months ago. She’s incredibly talented, but it wasn't just the art that drew us together; there were these late nights talking about our inspirations, and one night turned into another, and before we knew it... Well, let's just say something else happened beyond the canvas.... It was purely consensual roleplay, I assure you. But here’s what bugs me, why did I do this? Why not focus on the work or stick with my commitments to my partner? Am I such a fool for art that I can’t control myself around someone who sparks those creative fires as intensely?... And yet it happened again last week. We’ve both made sure there are no repercussions, just these brief and intense moments of indulgence when we’re alone together.... What does this mean about me? Does my love for art extend so far that I’m willing to sacrifice something so precious in real life for a fleeting moment of creativity and passion elsewhere?...