...My Biggest Secret...

I'm in this open relationship thing now... it started as a way to explore without feeling guilty or like I was cheating. But one night, when we were both pretty drunk at this party... I found myself getting really close with someone else. They kissed me and pulled me into a corner... I panicked for a moment... but then everything felt so right and intense that I just went along with it.... It's the only time we've met up like that since then, but every time I see them now, my heart races and I wonder if they feel the same way or are just here to play games. This is really scary territory for me...