My One Night of Bondage Fantasies

So last week was my 40th birthday. I thought it'd be a nice little treat to give myself what I've been dreaming about for ages: real, consensual BDSM play with a stranger at this local dungeon space. It went well enough, I suppose, I guess I just wasn't ready for the emotional baggage of actually being tied up and not having full control over everything. My partner’s been supportive but weirded out by it all, and now that the novelty has worn off, I’m left wondering if I’m really into this stuff or just got caught up in a momentary fancy.