i couldn't tell her the truth

she was always so proud of being the only one in her family to make it through college. and i let her think that while i was still secretly paying off my loans from community college. she had no idea how close we were to bankruptcy last year when everything went wrong... every time she brings up how smart she is, how much better educated than me, it just eats at me.... why did i hide this for so long? it felt like the only way not to be ashamed of myself but looking back now its worse. i broke her trust and i dont know if we can come back from that...