...a secret from my wife...

I'm so conflicted right now... It started with this new guy in the office... He’s a few years younger than me and just transferred here... There was something about him that I couldn’t resist... One day, we were alone after work... The tension between us was palpable... We ended up kissing... Then things escalated quickly... Afterward, it felt so wrong... But also amazing in ways I never thought possible... This has been going on for a few weeks now... Every time feels like an escape from reality... Yet every time brings the guilt back too... How can someone cheat and feel like they’re still loyal? It doesn’t make sense but there’s no stopping it either... What am I even doing to my marriage... How long until this ruins everything...?...