feeling so dirty

i got this really bad urge after i split from my ex last month. we were married for years and it's all just gone to shit now. one night, while i was studying late in the library, some chick hit on me outta nowhere. she was way into me and before long we ended up in a back room making out super hard like no tomorrow. i didn't think about the consequences or anything, i just wanted to feel alive again. felt so ashamed afterwards but couldn't stop thinking 'bout it. wonder if i'll ever look at anyone else like that again.