... It Was Just Different ...

I've been in an open relationship for about six months now. At first, it felt like a weight had lifted off my shoulders, freedom to explore and connect with others without the fear of hurting anyone. But as time went on, something shifted inside me. I found myself drawn to someone who didn't fully understand the boundaries we set up... an outsider looking in. The way they made me feel was intense, but it felt so different from what I share with my partner back home. We met a few times behind closed doors, not just physically, though that happened too... It was more about how their presence unsettled and excited me at the same time. I haven't told either of them yet because I don't know how to explain it without hurting feelings on both sides. ... It's like having a secret lover who isn't really a lover at all, just someone who turns my world upside down when they're around...