Just Got Over My Ex and Had an Unexpected Encounter

So I was just back from a long weekend visit to my folks. We didn't talk much about the divorce, but it's weird being there without any sense of home or coming back to the same old routine. It's like nothing's right anymore. Anyway, I came back late and was really hungry for something comforting. I started thinking about the time before all this happened, before my ex even wanted out. We used to order in at three AM when we had a fight, chicken pad Thai with lots of chili sauce. Remember those days? They seem so long ago now. Anyway, I called up our usual place and was talking to the delivery guy about it. He's newish, tall guy named Sam who seems cool but kind of distant on the phone, not like the other regulars who know my order by heart. But that's okay, right? We're both adults now. So he showed up at my place a bit later with my food and I just... It was something in his eyes when we were talking earlier maybe, or it was the late-night vibe, but there was this tension between us and before I knew what was happening, I had leaned over to him. Kissing him. It's not like he pushed me away or anything; Sam kissed back pretty eagerly. We got really into it for a moment, hands everywhere, mouths locked tight, until we both pulled apart with wide eyes and awkward smiles. It was crazy, but consensual of course. I felt awful after that, of course. But it's not like I did anything wrong, right? Just two adults finding some comfort in the moment? Sam left with my food order, leaving me alone and confused. And now I'm stuck here late at night, trying to make sense of something that feels like a dream, but then again, maybe it isn't. Maybe I just needed someone else for a second.