just had one of those days

so yeah i was supposed to be planning my wedding next week but instead i spent all day thinking about the time me and my fiancee got a bit kinky at this motel outside town. she said it was just a spur of the moment thing but honestly it’s haunted me for weeks now, like i can’t get enough of those few hours we had together. sometimes i wonder if shes still thinking about it too, or if its just all in my head. i mean, i told her it was fine but maybe deep down she feels weird about it? i guess i’m just not sure how to bring it up again without seeming like a total freak. sigh