just feeling it out

so i just got out of a relationship like 2 months ago. we were together for about two years and yeah i was pretty sad at first but now im kinda glad its over. he was always kinda controlling, you know? not abusive or anything but little stuff that made me feel weird sometimes. anyways so ive been single since then and havent really felt the urge to get back into something quick. i mean id like to have someone around but not necessarily looking for a serious thing right now. so tonight i was out with some friends at this bar and there was this girl, she looked about in her twenties, sitting alone drinking beer. we got talking cause shes super nice and fun and we ended up hanging out till closing time. turns out she does sex work on the side, which honestly i wasnt expecting but it felt weirdly normal to hear. we kept chatting after that and there was just this vibe between us, you know? so when im at her place and well basically everyone knows what were here for but its still kinda surreal. its not like shes my girlfriend or anything its just tonight she wants me and i want her. and yes its pretty fucking explicit with condoms in every room (well mostly the bedroom obv). there are moments where im wondering if this is weird bc we dont have a relationship but honestly it feels more real than any of the past ones ive had. its like shes not holding back on anything, neither am i and that makes me feel good.