Exploring in Secret After Divorce

After my recent divorce, I thought I was over everything. My current partner and I have been together for a few years now, sharing every intimate detail of our lives. But the night after my ex-wife's visit, something inside me just snapped. It wasn't about her, she's a part of my past that I'm done with. No, it was about reconnecting with an old flame, someone who knew me in ways my new partner never will again. We arranged to meet late at night in an abandoned warehouse on the outskirts of town. She hadn't changed much since college; the same fiery spirit, the same electric chemistry. I couldn't resist her invitation to explore a side of me that's been dormant for too long. We delved into some taboo territory, experimenting with bondage and roleplay scenarios. It was intense, it was raw, and it felt incredibly liberating. But as dawn approached, so did the reality check. I left feeling both exhilarated and guilty. Is this who I am? Do I want to be this person again? As much as I loved every second of our encounter, there's no denying that I need to figure out where my true desires lie now, before they start confusing me about my current life.