Exploring Desire

Hey there. I’ve been married for a few years now and everything’s fine, it’s just... not enough sometimes. The other week, my spouse was away on business and I got it in my head to explore something more. It started with a friend from work, let’s call him Alex, he knows about this side of me that I can’t share at home. We met up one night and it felt... thrilling to break these rules we’ve made for ourselves, to feel like anything was possible again. We were explicit with each other, downright graphic, even, and the way he touched me, how he talked... It wasn’t just about the act, it was every word, every movement. And afterwards, it felt like a weight had been lifted... But now I’m left here trying to understand why this happened. Was it about needing more excitement? Wanting someone to push my limits? I guess there’s no clear answer...