feeling free again

so i just got divorced a month ago and the first week after we signed it was like a huge weight off my shoulders. but then i started feeling this weird pull towards trying something new, you know? i ended up hooking up with someone online, nothing serious, just casual stuff. it felt kinda good to explore without all that baggage from before, but at the same time it made me wonder why after all these years of being in a relationship, i still crave this kind of freedom and spontaneity. im not sure if its about moving on or just a phase of trying different things.