getting lost inside

i'm married to josh and we've been together since i was 21, but last night changed everything. we were trying something new, a roleplay thing where he's this strict boss and i have to do what he says or face the consequences. it started as playful domination but got darker, more intense than anything before. he told me to strip down in our basement and i was so turned on by his authority that i did, trembling from head to toe as i felt my clothes slide away. when we were both naked, josh tied me up with a rope, making sure i could barely move at all. the feeling of being restrained but knowing it was consensual made my heart race and juices flow like crazy. he used toys on me that night that left welts and bruises, marking my body in ways he said were permanent reminders of who's in control. it felt like a taboo forbidden fantasy come to life, yet so real and intense. after we finished, josh untied me but i was shaky, exhausted and overwhelmed by what we'd done together. do people play these kinds of extreme roleplays regularly? am i sick for enjoying that level of submission?