My Secret Nighttime Activity

I’ve always had this thing for playing out a submissive role during sex. It’s not something my partner and I do regularly; we mostly keep it to myself when we’re alone at night. Lately, though, I find myself craving that power dynamic more often than ever before. One night, after he went to sleep, I found myself handcuffing myself to the headboard while looking for some new ways to spice things up by myself. It was exhilarating and terrifying all at once. I wonder if this is something others experience too? Do you think it’s okay to indulge in such fantasies on my own when we don’t do them together? I feel a bit conflicted because part of me feels guilty for not sharing, but another part just wants to explore more. Any advice out there for someone who craves a bit of control and submission in the bedroom, even if it’s just their secret world?