A Secret Kink...

I've been with my partner, Alex, for about two years now. We have a great relationship, good communication, and we try to be open and honest with each other. But there's this one thing that I've never told him...and it might sound crazy or even like something out of a bad porn video, but it’s just part of who I am. It's my fascination with blindfolds during sex. I know, I know, some people think anything more than vanilla is too weird, and I get that. But the idea of not seeing what's happening, being completely vulnerable to everything Alex does to me... it turns me on like nothing else can. The thought of him guiding me through it all while my senses are heightened in other ways... I've tried talking about kinks before with him, we're both pretty adventurous when it comes to exploring new things. But this one... I don't know why, but I just never could bring myself to say the words out loud. And that's been bothering me lately. So here I am, writing all this down. I feel silly even typing it out, like I'm going overboard or something, but maybe if I put it out there in this format... Maybe then I'll actually have the courage to talk about it with Alex. I don't want him to think less of me for having these desires, and at the same time, I know he deserves honesty from me. He's been supportive through everything else, why should this be any different? The other day, we were talking about adding something new into our sex life...something exciting. And I almost spoke up right then and there. But that would've felt so sudden, like a secret finally being sprung on him out of nowhere. So now it’s just me typing away in the middle of the night, with nothing but my thoughts and this little digital page to help sort through it all...