Keeping My Secret Job from My Spouse

I work at a retail store, and I’ve been doing this for years now. It’s not just a job to me; it's where I find myself exploring another side of who I am. A few months ago, I started selling adult toys on the side. Not in my regular retail place, but at a boutique shop nearby that caters specifically to those items. The shift from customer service to being a trusted advisor about people’s intimate lives has been incredible. It’s like finding a community of people who understand me without judgment. But here's the thing, my husband knows nothing about this secret gig. I worry it will change his perception of me, or worse, make him feel uncomfortable with me. He supports my career growth and personal exploration in other areas, but I'm afraid to show him this side of myself that feels so private and specific to my desires. Tonight, after closing at the boutique, I felt a mix of excitement about what I do there and anxiety about hiding it from someone who is otherwise incredibly supportive. This secret makes me feel alive, yet deeply insecure about sharing it.