My Secret Painting Obsession...

I've always been an artist, but lately I've been struggling with this secret obsession that's creeping into my work. When my partner isn't around, I find myself sketching and painting explicit scenes from our sex life in such intricate detail... it feels like a betrayal every time my fingers dance across the canvas. The worst part is when I start getting off to the act of painting it, imagining it as we did that day in the bedroom, him behind me with his hands gripping my hips so tight... It's all too real, and yet it feels wrong to be pouring this much emotion into art about something he doesn't even know exists. I feel like such a hypocrite...