The Boss Who Taught Me Power Dynamics

My ex was my boss at a retail job. We had an on-again-off-again affair marked by power struggles. One day, after months of tension, he told me to take off my clothes and stand still while he disciplined me with a flogger. The sensation mixed with fear and excitement, it felt like submitting to his authority was exactly what I needed. Afterward, we never spoke about it again. Now I'm left wondering if I was playing into toxic patterns or breaking free of them.