...My Secret Office Habit...

I've been married for five years now, and we have this arrangement where I work from home. It's convenient because it saves on childcare costs, but I feel like lately there's a bit of a disconnect between us. My wife works long hours at her office, while I'm mostly around the house when she's gone. It all started innocently enough...I'd catch myself daydreaming about what it would be like to have someone else in my space, interacting with me not just as my spouse but on a different level. The idea of an assistant or even another freelancer popping by to help out the home office felt exciting and new. Then one night last month, something changed... I was working late, typing away at the keyboard when my thoughts started to wander down paths they hadn't before. What would it feel like to have someone close by, watching me type? How about if we got a bit closer with just casual conversation and maybe some light touch? And then one evening, while I was on a call for work, another thought hit me... Why not try it out? I started fantasizing about what would happen if my wife came home unexpectedly. Would she be shocked or intrigued by the idea of this secret office habit developing? Maybe even join in and help create the fantasy? I know there's nothing to worry about since everything is consensual, but it still feels...wrong somehow. Is it because I'm cheating on her with my imagination, or am I just craving more spice in our marriage? Lately, when she does come home early, I've been playing it cool and keeping a tight lid on these thoughts. But the fantasies persist...it's not like I'm going to act out anything illegal or dangerous. Still, there's this gnawing guilt at the back of my mind that makes me wonder if I should mention this to her, but how could I ever bring it up without sounding insane? So for now, I'll just keep these moments to myself and hope they fade on their own. ...