A Secret I Can't Shake

I'm in an open relationship with Jordan, who's been incredibly supportive of my transition. Last week though, we were at this party and this guy named Alex approached me. He seemed to know something about my past, I couldn’t tell if he was just guessing or if someone had let it slip. Regardless, I ended up spending the night talking and drinking with him. The next thing I knew, there was a heated kiss and then... well, more than that happened. It felt so wrong on some level but also strangely liberating. Jordan's okay with my non-monogamous side, but this isn’t about exploring new sides of myself; it’s deeper somehow, dredging up old feelings I thought were buried. It keeps haunting me, wondering what Alex might have seen in me and why he pushed so hard for that connection.