Caught in My Past's Embrace

I recently got divorced and started seeing someone new. It’s been great so far, but there’s this one thing from my past that keeps haunting me. Last night, we were at a hotel for the weekend getaway my partner had planned. We were alone in the room, just relaxing after dinner when I found myself craving something old yet forbidden. Out of nowhere, an urge hit me to roleplay with him as if he was someone else from my past. It felt wrong, but also oddly right, like a twisted nostalgia trip that only made things between us feel more intense and alive. As we got into it, there was this moment where I almost crossed the line, letting slip some old habit from when I wasn’t quite ready to leave my ex behind yet. My partner caught me mid-sentence, eyes narrowing with an unreadable mix of hurt and curiosity. It was a jarring reminder that no matter how much time passes or how far you try to run, some pieces of your past stick around in ways you least expect. I’m not sure if this will become a thing between us, it definitely felt like a mistake as soon as it happened, but it’s eating at me now. What does it mean when the ghost of an old relationship haunts your new one? Am I really ready to let go completely?