A Secret From My Divorce Papers

Since my recent divorce, I've been feeling more and more alone. One night, while drinking a bit too much wine, I found myself at an adult party that was far from what you'd expect in the doctor's circles. There were... unconventional activities that crossed many lines of professionalism and personal boundaries. It felt so wrong yet oddly liberating. Now, weeks later, I can barely bring myself to think about it, let alone talk about it with anyone. Am I a bad person for indulging? Can someone else out there relate?