confession from an engaged trans woman

i was so scared to tell my fiance about my past sexual experiences before i transitioned but he understands and loves me for who i am. we were in the bedroom last night when he asked if i wanted to try something new. at first, i hesitated thinking about how far back it went, but then he said he wanted me to feel comfortable, so we started slow with some soft kisses and gentle touches. as we got more into it, i let go of my inhibitions and guided him through what felt right for me now. we explored each other's bodies in a way that honored both our pasts and our present together. it was intense, intimate and really raw, his hands were everywhere, feeling the curves of my body, teasing my nipples until they were hard, his fingers slipping between my legs to find that spot that only he knew i loved before. i moaned softly as he pushed inside me, both of us lost in the moment, our bodies moving together in a rhythm we had built from scratch. it was beautiful and scary all at once, i felt seen, truly seen by him, and it made everything feel possible.