A Secret from My Military Life

I'm married to a soldier, and our marriage is good overall. But there's this thing that I've kept hidden for years. A few months ago, while he was deployed, I met someone online who understood my loneliness. We connected over shared experiences of military life, the challenges we faced alone. One night, it turned into more than just talking. We started sending each other explicit messages and even exchanged videos. It felt like a release from reality. When my husband came back, the connection ended abruptly. I've never told him anything about it. The guilt eats at me, but so does the secret thrill of those moments.