i did something i shouldn't have

hey so like a month ago i was feeling really lonely and just craving some connection you know? and one night i ended up on this app where people share kinda secret stuff and found this private group for married couples to talk about their kinks with each other. it felt wrong but also kind of exciting at the same time. before i knew it, i was chatting pretty openly with these strangers about fantasies i've had for years but never acted on or even told anyone. one guy messaged me and we started talking one-on-one and i let him talk me into a really intimate video chat session where we explored some bdsm stuff. afterward i felt horrible like it crossed a line somehow but also relieved in weird way too. not sure how to process any of this honestly.