A Secret Night Off Duty

I've been with my partner for five years now, and we have a solid relationship. But last week, I had the urge to try something different. I was off duty and thought about what it would be like to meet someone new for a night of casual intimacy. It happened at a bar where I ended up talking to another guy who seemed interested in me. We exchanged numbers, but then I chickened out and deleted his contact right after leaving the bar. I'm still thinking about how close I came to breaking my commitment without ever really acting on it. That moment feels like a strange turning point even though nothing happened.