feeling lost and confused

i was just out of my relationship and feeling really empty so i went to this kink event thinking it would be a good distraction. met this guy who seemed nice enough but as we talked i realized he had an idea for some light bdsm roleplay which kinda appealed to me at the time. agreed and things got pretty heated fast, more than i thought they would honestly. ended up doing stuff that felt a bit intense but consensual the whole time. afterward i was all kinds of mixed up trying to figure out why this happened. do i need to explore some darker fantasies? am i just looking for something different in my next relationship? confused as fuck really.