i did something i never thought i would

so this is kind of a long story but basically i'm a first year law student and i've been pretty much dating my study group partner for the past few months. it's nothing serious, just some casual hookups and the occasional dinner or movie night. she’s always so chill and open about everything we do together. last week we got really drunk at one of our study sessions and things kinda went further than usual. we ended up in her place on her couch. i don’t know if it was all the alcohol or just the heat between us, but it became pretty intense. she asked me to tie her hands behind the back of the couch while we were doing it. at first, i was like hell no, that’s way too much for my comfort level, but then she said something about wanting control taken away and how it would make everything so much better. so here's where i really fucked up: i did it. i tied her hands and went full on dominatrix mode. she was loving every second of it though, whispering all these dirty things that made me lose my mind. once the tie came off, she flipped us around so she was on top. this is going to sound crazy but after that night, she’s been asking for more and i’ve been getting really into this whole dominant side of myself. it's scary as hell because i know what a serious commitment like this can mean in a real relationship. the idea of her wanting me to be controlling or to tie her up every time we get together is wild. still, there’s something about giving that part of my personality free rein with her that feels really good. i just don’t know where this is going and i think deep down i’m scared it's going to lead to a place i'm not ready for.