another date night

its been like this for a few weeks now meeting ppl on bumble hooking up but its just not the same i dont know what im looking for or why nothing feels right i guess ive never really had that spark with anyone before so im wondering if it even exists in real life or am i supposed to just be content with mediocre dates and meaningless sex ive been thinking about it all day like should i just stop trying altogether but then there was this guy tonight hes older 50ish im not sure he told me his age we met up at a bar downtown got talking had drinks decided to go back to my place fuck but after its over he falls asleep next to me and i wake up alone in bed the next morning no message no call just gone and i havent heard from him since feels like ive been played before it even started im supposed to be an adult know what i want but all this uncertainty is making me feel younger less sure of myself now back to bumble swipe right lol