it was so embarrassing

i dont know how to talk about this stuff honestly i feel ashamed even saying it out loud. me and my partner weve been together for a while now but one night i just got this weird urge you know? wanted to try something different something kinda taboo or maybe not taboo but different enough that she wouldnt get into it. so i asked her if she ever thought about retail workers in uniform doing stuff like that, like how sexy the name tags and aprons could be and how they touch everything all day long. i dont know why i said it i was just curious and a little turned on by the idea of those uniforms being sexual but when i brought it up to her she looked at me like i had two heads. i felt so bad after that, like there must be something wrong with me wanting that or thinking about it. its not even real retail stuff i mean obviously we arent doing anything unethical here at work but the idea of playing around with some props and dressing up made my mind go wild. now im worried she thinks im sick or weird for even bringing it up. im so ashamed to talk about it and dont know how i can fix this if there is a problem. i just wish i could unthink those thoughts sometimes.