Late Night Realization

I recently got separated from my husband and have been struggling with the aftermath. Last night, I found myself seeking solace in an unexpected place, a local bar. There, after a few drinks, I ended up talking to an attractive lawyer named Jake who offered me emotional support and a distraction. We shared an intimate moment that felt liberating yet confusing. Reflecting on it now, I'm questioning why this sudden lapse in my usual self-control occurred, especially given the recent upheaval in my life. Was it merely about finding comfort or something deeper?