It's Complicated with My Partner

My partner and I have been together for three years now. We're really good friends, we share everything, but there's this one thing that hangs over us like a storm cloud, intimacy. It's not that I don't love him or care about him; it’s just... complicated. There are times when I want more than what we have, and he seems happy with the status quo. The tension has grown since my best friend introduced me to some of her kinks during a wild night out last year. Since then, every time we get close, I find myself thinking about those fantasies she shared. It’s not that I don't appreciate my partner's touch or care for him deeply; it's just... there are other things on my mind now. We’ve talked about it, but the conversation always ends with an uneasy understanding and a sense of unspoken promises hanging in the air.