A Secret Late-Night Venture...

I've been married for five years now, and we've built quite the life together. But there's this one thing that I keep hidden from my spouse, a habit I picked up last year after a particularly stressful period at work... visiting chat rooms and forums dedicated to CNC roleplay. It started as an escape, a way to vent out frustrations in a controlled environment without real harm. I never act on the fantasies or share personal details; it's all just words and imagination. But there are times when scrolling through these exchanges gets me so worked up that I end up pleasuring myself... I guess it's a kink I've found to relieve stress, but I'm afraid my partner might see it as something darker if they ever found out. It's one of those secrets I don't think I'll share anytime soon...