just another night

i was hanging out at this bar last week, trying to avoid thinking about dropping out of grad school. met some guy there who seemed interested in me even though i usually keep everyone at a distance. we ended up talking for hours, mostly just listening to him ramble on and on about his life. it was kinda comforting, honestly, the distraction from my own messes. later, when things heated up between us, it was quick and dirty. nothing special really. but afterwards i felt... better. like a weight had lifted off me. maybe it's just one of those things you need sometimes? who knows.