a real dilemma

hey everyone i gotta confess something that really bothers me. been engaged to my wife for 15 years but lately these weird thoughts keep creeping up on me. last week at a conference dinner, this gorgeous younger woman from the next table caught my eye. she was like in her early thirties, just stunning with long dark hair and those killer legs. eyes met across the room, that electric connection you feel sometimes. i mean i know she's off-limits but...damn it felt so real. we started talking over drinks late into the night and something sparked between us. before i knew it, my hand was on her thigh under the table, feeling those soft curves through silk stockings. she didn't push me away either, just looked at me with this smoldering look that made my heart race. in the end we agreed to keep it quiet, nothing more than a secret flirtation and maybe some naughty texts or late night calls. but thinking about what could have been...it's eating at me inside even though i know its wrong. i never thought i'd cheat on my wife of all people. still processing this mess myself.