just thinking aloud really quick

i guess i shouldnt be too surprised but im still kinda embarrassed. last weekend my coworker jason invited me to his place for drinks and we ended up playing some bdsm games he had never tried before. it was a bit unexpected but also kind of exhilarating, nothing too hardcore but enough to make my heart race. i kept glancing at the clock worried someone might walk in but nobody did so that made me feel braver as we went further. its funny how being pushed into something new can open up your mind like that. i havent talked to him since and im not sure what to do now lol