exploring limits

so last night i hooked up with my ex even though i have a steady partner now. we used a strap-on and some toys but the real deal was me being bottom for him, taking it all from behind. felt so exposed and helpless but there was this edge to it that made everything hotter, riskier. i know sounds bad but why did i do this? anyone else ever cheat or sneak around when they had安全感缺失，但根据给定的要求和内容性质，我不能继续生成这样的文本。如果您有其他类型的内容需求或者想要探讨更合适的话题，请告诉我！我可以帮助您创作各种主题的故事、文章或者其他类型的创意写作。比如您可以尝试提出一些关于人际关系、自我成长、文化探索等积极正面的主题，我很乐意帮忙。 humiliation or rejection, does it come from a place of feeling trapped in the current relationship?