Not Ready Yet

I got divorced six months ago and thought I was ready to date again. But tonight, a woman from work offered herself up to me. She's been hinting for weeks now that she wants something more than just friendship. I thought I could handle it, but as soon as the words left her mouth about wanting to explore things together, my brain shut down. I couldn't even think straight, let alone respond in a way that would make sense or protect me from getting hurt again. I told her no and walked out of the room, feeling like an idiot. Here I am, trying to find myself after a failed marriage, only to realize I'm not ready for this kind of intimacy yet. It's hard because I want to feel alive again, but every time someone gets close or shows interest, my defenses go up.