Post-Divorce Hookup Was Too Good To Resist...

So I guess I should start at the beginning... It was a few weeks after my divorce became final. You know, when you're still processing all of it and feeling like there's no point in trying to be 'responsible' anymore. One night, out drinking with some friends from college, we meet this guy... He just had this... spark about him? I mean, he's a bit older than me but looked ten years younger. And he was so confident. We talked for hours and drank more than I ever wanted to admit. By the end of it all, we were making out on his doorstep. His place wasn't fancy or anything, just comfortable... It was weird because as soon as we got inside, there was this sudden rush of need. Like, 'I want you now' kind of need... And that's exactly what happened. No foreplay or build-up... We had sex right then and there on his bed, clothes half-on, bodies still trembling from the alcohol and nervousness. The next morning, everything was blurry except for how good it felt... Why did I do this? It wasn't just about physical release; there was something else going on... Do others ever make these kinds of impulsive choices after major life changes like divorce? What am I missing or what are my needs saying to me?