finally got over the ex

so i was dating this guy for like a year and a half straight we were in grad school together but then it just ended abruptly he said i was too much work even though i tried my best to be supportive all the time anyway i went back home to mom and dad s house and they kept saying i should get back into shape so... yeah i got kinda obsessed with working out every day and started losing weight fast like 30 pounds in a month and then one day at the gym this really hot older guy was looking at me all weird while we were both on the treadmill he asked if i wanted to go for drinks after but idk why i just said no it felt weird so later that night when im home alone watching netflix something happens, my body starts tingling and i realize ive been thinking about this stranger all day and suddenly i just can t take it anymore i pull out a dildo from under the bed its one of those big ones and start fingering myself really hard imagining it s him he looks so hot in his workout clothes with muscles bulging and everything im so turned on i stick two fingers inside now pretending to be this strangers hands i keep going faster and faster until finally i m panting and sweating my hips moving up and down frantically as i try to imagine every detail of being taken by him it feels so good but also weird like ive never felt this before suddenly i come hard squeezing the dildo tight with both hands as orgasm rolls through me for what feels like forever afterwards im just lying there staring at the ceiling trying to catch my breath feeling a little ashamed but mostly relieved