Rebuilding My Life After Divorce Through Intimacy

Since my divorce a few months back, I've struggled to find my footing in both personal and professional life. Teaching high school English has never felt as draining or as lonely as it does now. One evening, after hours of grading papers and feeling utterly disconnected from everything around me, I found myself craving something real. Something that could rekindle the parts of me that felt neglected by divorce and daily routine. I reached out to a colleague who had always struck me as someone with a keen understanding of life's complexities beyond our shared work environment. She was married but suggested we explore a mutual fascination for roleplay, something both exciting and comforting in its boundaries and consent. We agreed on a weekend evening session where she would take the role of my supportive mentor, guiding me through fantasies I'd always harbored about finding solace and connection outside of traditional relationships. The night unfolded with intense physical intimacy that surpassed anything I had imagined or experienced since before my divorce. It was raw and beautifully explicit, involving every inch of skin in a way that felt like the first touch all over again. There were moments when her hands guided mine through sensations both familiar and entirely new, igniting parts of me that had been dormant for far too long. This session has left me wondering if what we did is normal or healthy after a divorce. Should I continue seeking this kind of intimate connection as a means to heal, or am I simply looking for distractions in a vulnerable period? Your thoughts and experiences would mean the world to me right now.