...Well This Is Awkward...

So, I just got this divorce finalized last week. It's kinda surreal but also like a huge relief and new start. We were together for ten years and it was a long road to getting here. The sex never really went away, we both tried different things with toys, positions, fetishes, but eventually all that stuff just felt hollow. I had this idea my partner wouldn't want vanilla after all those extra kinks, but I guess we kinda hit the point where everything is vanilla again and not much else works anymore. Anyway, so I'm feeling vulnerable now...I've been talking to someone on a dating app for about three weeks now who's fun and flirty. He's in his forties too, same age bracket as my ex but this new person feels very different from the divorce baggage. We talked about being open and decided it would be good to meet up IRL first before anything else...but then somehow, he sent me a text the other day saying 'Hey, what do you think about swinging? Have any experience with that?' Which was really unexpected because we hadn't really discussed that sort of thing earlier. I'm kinda at a place now where I feel like trying everything once and seeing if it fits or not...but also worried if he's actually serious or just feeling out things in the moment. Anyway, we're meeting for drinks this weekend and I think it'll come up then if he wants to suggest it again face-to-face. I'm kinda nervous but curious at the same time. So here I am with my past being a long-term vanilla relationship...and suddenly thinking about swinging and open encounters with other people's partners. It sounds so different from what I've known before that it feels both strange and exciting all at once... Anyway, we agreed to just meet up for coffee or drinks this weekend first though, which is smart! I want to see how things feel in person before anything else. But...there will probably be some talking about opening up the dynamic during that meetup too if his interest holds true from what he's said. So yeah, there you have it. A new chapter opening up in an unexpected way with a fun mystery man on the horizon who is open to swinging and I'm feeling curious and vulnerable at the same time...